Roller Coaster

So it's been over a month since I've last written in here.. well a lot has happened in that month.. I have been going through plenty of regular emotions of a girl while waiting for someone who I don't even know for sure is the one for me. I do how ever hope and believe he can be the perfect man in my life. I just have to be patient and do whatever it takes to be the best I can be for him. Michael and I have a best friend relationship.. I am now having a hard time because he is SO focused on his mission that when we email and write letters there is no sign of romance.. or flirtation.. which is fine I mean he should be completely focused but at the same time I'm trying to hope and wait for a man who is giving me nothing at all to keep my hopes up.. so as of last week I decided to take a month off all together and see what he does. If he writes me back then great but if not than that's fine. I'm going to let him chase me. I'm done chasing him and doing everything. So this last P-day I did not write to him.. I did get a personal email this week though. So I will not write him a gain next week and see what he does. I want him to miss me. This will be fun to see where this goes. So that is my update for now and will update at the end of my month and put the results on here. Let's hope he chases me now!