Roller Coaster

So it's been over a month since I've last written in here.. well a lot has happened in that month.. I have been going through plenty of regular emotions of a girl while waiting for someone who I don't even know for sure is the one for me. I do how ever hope and believe he can be the perfect man in my life. I just have to be patient and do whatever it takes to be the best I can be for him. Michael and I have a best friend relationship.. I am now having a hard time because he is SO focused on his mission that when we email and write letters there is no sign of romance.. or flirtation.. which is fine I mean he should be completely focused but at the same time I'm trying to hope and wait for a man who is giving me nothing at all to keep my hopes up.. so as of last week I decided to take a month off all together and see what he does. If he writes me back then great but if not than that's fine. I'm going to let him chase me. I'm done chasing him and doing everything. So this last P-day I did not write to him.. I did get a personal email this week though. So I will not write him a gain next week and see what he does. I want him to miss me. This will be fun to see where this goes. So that is my update for now and will update at the end of my month and put the results on here. Let's hope he chases me now!

Miracles In The Past 4 Years (:

First miracle:
June, 2010 Efy I'm so grateful for these wonderful youth activities that bring the gospel into our lives and also bring forever lasting friendships.

Second Miracle:
Random guy Named Kelton Marx who opened the door for me on the last day and started talking to me.. we did everything together that day and became close friends by the end of the day.. I even started to like him a bit.. well if it wasn't for him introducing me to his other friends who was Michael and his Sister.. I would have never have met the most amazing guy in the world.

Third Miracle:
6 months later Michael found me on Facebook. We didn't know each other's last name or phone numbers or where each other lived.. thank goodness for technology and efy friends to seal the loop.

Fourth Miracle:
1 year later... we finally meet in person again! We became best friends.

Fifth Miracle:
Michael and I never kissed or had a physical relationship.. strictly based on spiritual and each other. I've always had a problem with loving too much and wearing my heart on a sleeve and being in love with love. Well Heavenly Father showed me that I can love someone without even kissing them and being mushy. I can love them through service, talking about each other and the gospel. I've never loved some one so much in my life!

Sixth Miracle:
The distraction. Michael and I got too serious but not physically but with words. We loved each other too much and still had to wait 4 years til he got home from his mission. SO the distraction was Michael got a girlfriend... and I became the enemy to the girl.. Michael and I no longer friends.

Seventh Miracle:
Two years separated but never did I want another man but Michael.. I dated and even got in some serious relationships but never did I find another man who i wanted more.. Heavenly Father was making sure I dated but showed me who I really wanted.

Eighth Miracle:
Heavenly Father answers prayers... I was dating a guy seriously that my mom didn't feel good about and one night my mom prayed that if this guy was the one for me.. that she would feel something towards him. That she would feel like he was the one for me.. But if not.. that I would love him like a brother and that I could be guided to the one for me. Next day.. Michael shows up at our door.. Saying he just felt like he needed to come back and that my name popped into his head.. He told my mom that she prayed him back..

Ninth Miracle:
Patience.. Michael doesn't want a girlfriend.. he wants to focus on his mission and not be distracted... I have felt so lonely and didn't know why I was still holding on.. til one night I prayed about it and I felt peace and assurance that things will work out.. but I need to be patient.. Don't give up. Keep being the best I can be and be patient. "All good things a wait those who are patient."

Tenth Miracle:
Love and friendship... I have felt so blessed while Michaels been out on his mission. Heavenly Father has shown me over and over again that there is great fish out there but only one is worth waiting for. He has brought Michaels family into my life and ever since he's been gone I've been seeing them and talking with them and thinking about them.. non stop. Michael and I are 30 min away from each other and it's a tender mercy that I get to meet his siblings who aren't' even from here and come around in my area.. not knowing why but that they just felt like they should come.. Heavenly Father knows our wants and needs and will bless us if we are patient and have faith. I'm so grateful for these 10 tender mercies and miracles.

TWO MONTHS DOWN!

It's been a long LONG two months but it's been so great! I got to go to his house and deliver cookies! Which may I add... was a little sad because when I was driving upto his house... he isn't there of course and it was the hardest thing.. I still imagined/ and hoped to have him open the door with that big grin of his and welcome me in with his big warm hugs where I get suffocated because I'm soo short to him.. haha I miss him so much! I've started to learn Spanish and now when he writes his testimony in his emails I can understand the jift of it! I'm learning fast! It's amazing how fast two months have gone but the same time it's going slow.. I love him with all my heart and he is an incredible man. I always thought it would be fun to have a missionary and send packages and be mushy and talk about marriage and blah but I soon realized when Michael and I became best friends (again) that I didn't look at him that way. I looked at him as a man who holds the priesthood who loves and respects it and cherish it. It talks about in my blessing to find a man who honors and respects the priesthood and to expect none other.. and that heavenly father will help guide me in this selection. Let me tell you... I've been led and Michael and has shown that he wants nothing else but to serve God. Now I love him for his amazing personality and testimony and great looks and wonderful family... but man his testimony and actions through the gospel is amazing! He loves the gospel with all his heart and he wanted nothing else but to go on a mission and serve! I never wanted a to call a man my missionary so much in my life! I wanted to call him mine! My missionary and my best friend who has this desire in life! I'm so proud of him and grateful that I get these two years to spend with him through his mission!
TWO MONTHS DOWN 22 MONTHS TO GO!!!

3rd email and picture update!

June 15th:
I'm hoping you got the letter this week! Ha I totally forgot what I said so I hope you enjoy it when you read it!(: make sure to write back when you can because getting letters is much more fun!(: I hope you had a wonderful week this week! Do you get to play volleyball often in the mission field?? Hope to hear from you soon! Have a grand week Michael! Miss you.

June 16th:
Your letter was really nice haha thanks! I will do my best to write you back when I get the chance. Honestly right now I dont even know how to send a letter to the US so this week I will find out and write you back then! How is everything going for you? How is your work? :)

2nd Email and picture udpate!

June 9th:

I heard about your grandma passing away this past week.. I'm so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers. You guys are such wonderful people and I'm so lucky to know you and your family. We made your family cookies and are sending them over sometime this week. Just a little treat to help add a smile. I have a package ready for you. What's the best address to send it to?? I want it to actually get to you. Ha so I'm crossing my fingers. Well I hope you have such a wonderful week Michael! Thanks for being such a great friend and example to me! You are an amazing missionary! 

Love, Wendy

June 10th:

Thanks, you´re so sweet! Sorry it took so long to get back to you, I didn´t get to write last week cuz we were travelling to the mission field. I think I will get your letter soon, another Elder told me he saw it in the mission office, but Im not sure when we get our letters and stuff. So I will keep you posted though! Thanks for all your support!

Elder Larsen

P.S. here is the best address to send packages! Ship it through USPS though or it wont get to me!! Thanks! 

Elder Larsen

Me sending off my First letter last month!

1 Month Down and Still Counting

Michael and I have gone a month before without seeing each other so of course the first month wasn't to bad at all! It was like he was busy and I was busy and so we would just make time to see each other the next month! Of course I had to wait like a couple long weeks to hear from him personally which definitely was not fun! Heavenly father is watching over me and keeping me sane and patient. If if wasn't for him I'd be going insane about now! Now I'm to the point where I'm missing him like crazy and every where I go and see, hear, is always leading back to him. Even my mom will point out things that she notices that lead back to Michael! This has been a very interesting month though! 

First:

Michael's ex girlfriend... added me on Facebook and messaged me, she apologized to me about everything that happened and now were friends. Tender Mercy.

Second:

Michael's parents have been commenting and liking my things on Facebook and supporting my life choices right now. Tender Mercy.

Thirdly: Michael's Sister who lives in Texas and their family lives in Lehi... came in to my store (Seagull Book) in South Jordan to look at pictures.... ummm there's like 3 stores by their place.. I haven't seen her in person since EFY in 2009!! She's Michaels best friend and they are tighter than tight so of course I need to become close with this sister... she recognized me and gave me the biggest hug I've ever had! It runs in the family! She acted like I was a part of the family. OH MY GOOOSSSSHHH!! TENDER MERCY!

So this month has been great and Heavenly Father is watching over me and making sure I don't focus any where else. This is going to be a great two years!! 

First email!!

First email!
May 6th:
Hey Elder!
How's everything going in Chile?! I've got some fun stories coming your way! Let me know when you receive my letter cause I hope I wrote your address right haha your parents were sweet to give me your addresses! We are so proud of you! You've come a long way and you are doing awesome! Love hearing your testimony and your adventures. Have a great week! 

Love, 

Wendy

I haven't received the letter yet, Its a little weird here in the MTC with letters, so there is a chance I wont receive it until I get to my mission which will be in 2 weeks but I will definitely let you know when I get it! :) Thanks for the support! 

Elder Larsen

Pictures on his way to Chile MTC! 

Day one... CHECK!

He's officially gone...
I couldn't be more proud of him... he's been the bestest friend a girl could ask for. Even though we had a rough patch in our time.. it still was helped me realize that even when we are separated I still wanted him. Heavenly father gave me a mini test... he took Michael a way from me for two years and gave me the chance to see what it was like to be have him gone... the one man that I loved more than anything.. I dated and I had some relationships that were a bit serious but nothing not one man could take my heart like Michael did. Michael and I have never had a physical relationship.. we had date nights every night.. on the phone.. we talked for about an hour to two hours and we would always ask one personal question and then ask about how our days were and what new things happened today. Then talk about our passions, what he hate, what we love, and everything else.. you can imagine that we got to know each other soo fast! I was his best friend and he was my best friend. We had each other to always be there for each other. It was the perfect relationship! When I read my nightly scripture studies I would usually text him about a question and ask his opinion on the verse I was just reading and the next day when he woke up he would text me back and we would have a spiritual discussion! It was seriously amazing. I did want to kiss him and I did want to be his girlfriend but we loved each other for each other and it I knew later on in our lives that we would get the chance to move on with our relationship because it felt so perfect. But heavenly father knew that if we kept at the pace we were 4 years a go we would not be able to make it in the future.. so he put a distraction in the picture for two years to help us grow and live a bit before we are meant to be together again. At first I was super mad and confused that this was happening because I knew he was the one! But as time went on I realized that heavenly father was showing me he is still the one and that I needed to see it without having him there in my life. I needed to grow in some areas before I get him back. I'm so lucky to have him in my life! Now I get to experience his mission with him and be that best friend again and be the girl he tells everything to. I'm so excited! It's been a great day but man it's sad looking at the 3 digit numbers on my wall... but it'll go by quickly and it'll be some of the best two years that we'll have together!
Two years is nothing compared to eternity!
DAY ONE, CHECK!!

Getting to meet my AMAZING Cousin Lexi

So my cousin lexi Hansen was long boarding one night up in Provo and was hit by a car... she was given a less than 1% chance of living... the faith and prayers that the world gave us was incredible! Heavenly Father blessed her and let her live. It was a MIRACLE! She is my best friend and cousin. I couldn't stand to lose her. Michael was there every step of the way... he always made sure that we were doing okay and comforted me that she will be okay and that he and his family are fasting and praying for our family.. I couldn't ask for a better best friend. He might not have known how much that meant to me.. but I felt so much better knowing I had him there with me... there to lean on when I needed him. So a his last week when Lexi was almost healed and back to normal I had to introduce them. I told her everything and she had to meet him before he left so that she could approve haha Well he came over and met up with lexi and I. We had such a great time together laughing and talking. He felt like family already! When we left we stood on her driveway for 45 min. Talking and hugging and just letting everything slip away for that short time. It was the best moment ever! I wish I could have videoed or taken pictures. I will always remember that night with my two favorite people, the moment was too perfect. Miss it more than anything.

Our last couple of fun dates

Alright the time has FINALLY arrived!! He's officially got two weeks til he's out of here! I just went to his farewell yesterday and yes... I cried but his family was soo happy to see me and my family kept telling me how he couldn't take his eyes off of me..(: gah of course that made me smile bigger than anything! I didn't think I'd ever say this but my goodness I'm ready to start counting down... I love him to pieces but the longer he is here the longer I have to wait til he's home and I'd rather get it over with faster! So we had some fun last times together before he left... I will miss his hugs more than anything!

Waiting for his Mission Call....

Michael put in his mission paper a year ago... when he was still dating "HER" well... the bishop told him he wasn't ready to go on a mission yet and that he needed to focus on his spiritual level more and to keep preparing.. well obviously that was such a great thing for Michael to hear. He needed a bit of a shove in the right direction. So now back to the present.. it's been a bout a year and a half and Michael just recently put his mission papers in mmm it's been about 15 weeks now that he's been waiting.. well he's been going to through rough spots.. he's been missing "HER" and wanting her back because they were physical and when he is depressed he tends to want comfort.. well he and I have never had that physical side.. yet.. but I've been here trying to help him. I even went to his house with my best friend around 1 in the morning and left a bag full of his favorite sweets, and a note with the quote of Winnie the Pooh and Christopher Robbin. Just letting him know that I'm here for him no matter what and that even though he's still waiting for his mission call that he's already a missionary and is just soo great! Well that definitely lifted his spirits! He was felt a lot better. I sent him a daily scripture every morning and we would have gospel chats and talk about some of our favorite scriptures, what we learned. It made me feel closer to him and I loved him even more because of that connection we had through the gospel. When people say if you read the scriptures together and pray together it's almost dangerous because you tend to fall for them even more! Well it's true.. Michael has the most amazing testimony and strong spirit. I love him soo much and I got to know HIM for him. I have honestly never loved someone truly loved a man without the lust being a part of it.. but I've never had a physical relationship with Michael. We've always just been best friends and talked about each other and learned about each other every day. I can honestly say I know Michael for him. Soo the day finally came!! Michael got his call today!!! He's calling me tonight when he reads the call to his family! OH MY GOSH HE'S GOING TO VINA DEL MAR CHILE MISSION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I started crying when he started reading it... my best friends were with me and they had to take the phone from me cause I was crying so hard... I was really excited for him and sad that I was about to let go of him for two years.. but over all I was just soo proud of him! He's come soo far and I know he's been wanting this more than anything and that's what helped me. He is finally ready to go serve for the lord. Now I have 3 months with my best friend til we are separated for two years. But the journey that's a bout to come is going to be worth the wait.